Bikini to bulking, Metabolic Recovery and my Topsy Turvey life update.

Yes i know, i havent blogged in atleast 6 months.. but this is whats been happening....

SO as you know, i started dieting for the 2013 comp season after Christmas. It got to Easter, and i had put on 1%bf and weight hadnt budged. I worked SO hard, sprinting intervals every morning, NO "cheat meals" eating all organic food. I got really upset, and gave up. It wasnt until i listened to a someone kind enough to talk some sense into me,that i took her advice, and asked for help from her coach, Layne Norton. After a few emails he had taken me on as a client, and i saw a glimmer of hope in my life that was so dull, unhappy and stressful.

At first it as overwhelming. I had to let go of the dieting, staying lean mindset, and let my body do what ever it was going to do, and increase my food. It is such a mind game, especially being back at dancing where the girls are lovely, but the studio is full of mirrors, and "normal" girls who probably would have no idea about what im going through or why. The food was also a battle. Being "aloud" to fit in treats, stepping away from the whole "Clean Eating" scene, was a MASSIVE head game. I felt guilty for eating "non clean" foods, and kept asking myself,  Do i deserve this? I also had people in my ear saying IIFYM (If It Fits Your Macros) is really bad and unhealthy, you cant live off Maccas and TimTams. People have a really bad understanding of it. Yes i have maybe a treat every day, or few days, but i still eat quite healthy. I have a much better relationship towards food now. Id rather have a few treats that fitted into my plan, rather that binge and get upset and want to throw it up with guilt. I can now go out for meals, not plan what im eating a week in advance, and buy something random, and eat it. I love the freedom, even though its scary sometimes.

I have been working with Layne for 18 weeks and i have doubled what i was eating before, lost 1-2 kilos, and completely changed my body. I dont think there is ever a day i feel happy about my body, but then i look at this picture, and see the difference, and i try and focus on the outcome. Im slowly getting my head around the IIFYM lifestyle, and my metabolic recovery.

Being a part of Team Norton is amazing. Everyone is so lovely, caring, inspiring, there is just no words for how much they have helped me through this journey. Its the best thing i have ever done and i am so grateful to find such an amazing coach, and  such lovely team members.

Non bodybuilding related news, i had my first Dancing Eisteddfod back after time off, and had a blast. I missed the stage. I decided to start driving lessons to go for my Ps test before my L's expire for the 3rd time, which i did, and failed for going 25km in an intersection, and going through an orange light when i didnt think id stop in time. That was a few weeks ago and im only just getting the courage back to get going again. I am also going through someone in my life having Anorexia, and it has really challenged me mentally and emotionally. Everyday has been a struggle for the last few months, but i try and find some light to get through, and i have had some amazing support from people which im so greatful for.

My aim is to compete next year, im doing it for me, and i am not going to get crazy lean, im going to get to a "Happy weight" and focus on my health and do bikini. If im not ready for Season A, i will do Season B, there is no rush.

I just wanted to let you guys in on whats been happening, and i guess vent a bit aswell.

I have no wise words right now, or know if anyones going to read this, but you only get one life, so if you dont like something, change it. Why not. You only get one life, and every second that passes, you wont get back.

Over and out, 

Lj x

2013, yes im still here!

So, its 2013!

Yes i know, there has been a lack of blogging, and after lots of you nagging, here it is!

Im not one for the "New years resolutions", an excuse to say your going to do something you SHOULD be doing anyway, then because its such a fad, you give up 2 weeks in.

I did 1 things this year, and that was promise myself, id look after my body.

Plan for this year is to compete in September, when i have slowly started prepping for, to insure i dont put my body under stress and it trys to self distruct itself again.

After a bit of convincing, i went back to dancing last month after having a year off. Im loving being back, it feels like home. Thats also bringing a exciting new oppertunity that i will let you guys in on soon.

I am going throgh some family stuff at the moment, that i wish i cold share, but cant. 

Id just like to say.. Actally, its gotten to th stage where i dont even know what to say anymore.

I jst got back from QLD last week, had 2 weeks off work and the stressses of everyday life, which i very mch needed, and im feeling very refreshed and positive. Im interested in starting to learn how to meditate, and learn about Buddism, so PM me if you have some info for me!

Training is going very well, my body is also loving having dancing back in my life, thats after the first few days after class where i feel about 150 years old.

Eating is great, im off cheat meals which is odd for me, i think how bad i react to them has taught me to steer clear! Im lactose intolerant, so im COMPLETELY off dairy, for obvious reasons, and i have also cut down on sweetners, added more superfoods, drinking more green tea, not drinking coffee, and NO PROSSESSED SUGAR FREE FAT FREE GARBAGE! I did a 5 day vegan detox before QLD and i took onboard some of the things, but at this stage, im keeping the meat. i have substituted my WPI to sprouted vegan protein, which my tummy agrees with.

Thats about it from me, il try and keep yo more regularly updated, im heading to FitX this week so i will do a writeup on that!

Im out, Lj x

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